Broken bonds and bitter rivals.

Man I wish that it was back to what it was last year. I wish that things had never changed. Some things were for the best, I got great outcomes out of it, Josephine and I are good friends now so it's great :)   But I wish it was just before the holidays. When the bond between everyone was unbreakable. But it seems the impossible is possible and that broken bonds have occurred. I wish that there was no such thing as hatred, & hurt, and yet I tell you all, no one seems to really understand how this is really affecting me. People must consider others besides themselves. In a matter of 8 weeks friendships have gone down the drain. That's equivalent to two months. Two stinking months. Some bonds with people have become greater, like me and Cwiz for example. But hey you gain some, you lose A LOT. I guess that's how the world works.

But I wonder for a second if anyone stopped to think how I felt. The world doesn't revolve around just yourselves, this is to anyone reading this, not to any specifics. People need to consider the situation and understand the context. What's the point of being a friend if they don't converse with one another? Is saying "I'm here for you" appropriate when they don't even talk to the person? What's there to say. I've apparently become very boring, to some people. Lol, maybe people just don't understand who I am as a friend, or people don't value what I have to offer, maybe people just want me as their friend because I can get them heaps of discounts at McDonald's. Well hey. Wow, sad realisation here I feel used. Lols. Wow.. Rosaline you're really really slow.  

 -.-''

But hey maybe I was never meant to have friends my whole life. Maybe, just maybe I was meant to be put through this life called 'hell' to experience true happiness. Maybe I'll just get that happiness when I kill myself. Lmao.

I wish the sun would never rise and the moon would never set; for every twinkling star I've seen shows how many times I've been hurt in my life. Gee that's many isn't it.

I'm really considering dropping out, or moving schools. No one would notice I've gone really. I would move to Sandra's, or Josie's.. to a place where someone notices me, where someone cares about me, a place where I'm not treated like a piece of dirt, a place where I have a purpose. 

A place where there are no broken bonds, or bitter rivals, a place were I can pursue my happiness, with friends that will stay by my side, friends that I just wish I had.